The Princess

She was THE princess and the prince belonged only to her,naturally.With that thought firmly planted in her mind,K got busy getting dressed to attend the ball of the year-the biggest event ever.Her gown was hot pink (designer!) and "My Oh My" she thought as she put it on and turned in front of the mirror. "Don't I look hot.Haaawt!" she said aloud and dreamily gazed at her beautiful dress.

Suddenly , she felt the earth moving,things around her falling,her table and chair moving--"are they possessed?!" she thought.Her books fell to the ground and one hit her on her head.Her common sense kick started!(finally) K realised it was an earthquake."Oh My God! what about the ball?!" She'd anticipated and waited for since the beginning of time.She had to---

"Wake up,Wake up" Sue screamed ,aggressively shaking her.K opened her eyes,looked around.K groaned and rolled over muttering "go away" to her sister.Sue tugged at K's blanket,giving up she started blabbering about how hot Edward Cullen was."like I cant see" she thought.k tuned out Sue's voice and decided that the prince (who apparently had no face until now) would be Edward Cullen.perfect--
"Are you listening to me?" asked Sue interrupting K's thoughts(again)
"Yes you pest" replied K sleepily. Sue suddenly screamed "message message" when she heard K's phone vibrating. "Who can it be so early on a Sunday morning?Don't they have a life" K muttered and looked for her phone.
Sue found K's phone under the pillow and read the message,her face lit up with a impish grin.Alarmed,K grabbed the phone and read the message over and over again.. K blindly stared at the screen for a while,slowly she sank back into bed and pulled the covers over her head.She shook her head and whispered in absolute denial " no no.This cannot be.Why now?! How could this happen to me?"

Her sister's voice broke through her thoughts(again!),K decided to ignore the message for a few hours and go back to sleep.She looked at sue and whispered hoarsely " What am I going to do?". Pulling K's psychology textbook from under a huge pile of books,Sue kept it on K's bedside table with a thud and said "For a start you can study for your surprise psycho test,which really isn't a surprise any more.Talk about your friends being the perfect wet blankets.they cant they keep a secret?" Sue laughed and walked away to crawl into her bed for more sleep but she paused at the door and turned around to say "Have fun.Nice way to being your Sunday" with an impish grin.

K watched her leave and disgustedly looked down to glare at her psychology textbook.She started studying by calling the textbook a "Fat Whore".

Empty

Every second,Every minute,Every hour she thought of nothing but him.His face,his crooked smile flashed before her.The sound of his voice-deep,strong and husky rang in her ears.She couldn't accept he was dead.
Everyone said "you should move on" ,"yes" she replied "I am".
They didn't know what it was like,they didn't know how impossibly difficult it was.Did they think it was easy for her to move on? she really didn't want to know any more,not that she didn't care,she did.She still did..
One night she woke up screaming from a nightmare,there was no one to console her. She thought of waking her brother,but he seemed tired when she'd seen him during dinner,she didn't want to worry him.Leaning against the wall,she looked up at the moon,It was so serene..
She walked to the terrace and looked at the sky-a vast blue velvet blanket with little lights scattered across it,the stars shining with all their might.The wind was gentle,it was like the wind was hugging her..
Lifting her eyes,she watched the stars,they smiled down at her.She smiled back.
The wind blew through her hair,as if playing with it. "I love you" she whispered to the wind,hoping it would carry the message to him.Not expecting any response she closed her eyes
"If my heart could beat,it would beat for you" The wind whispered back..
Tears stung to her eyes again. "Your heart maybe still,but it isn't empty.It isn't silent because it speaks to me " She said.
"Live for me" He said, "even if we're a world apart,I'll know that you do and be content.I love you.."

She wept.A human heart needed to shed such a deep well of tears.She touched the gold and silver pendent he'd given her and let it empty.

saying goodbye

Saying goodbye is never easy
It's the hardest thing to do
But what hurts even more
Is not the chance to say it to you.

Yesterday is just a memory
Our laughter was sunny and bright
Then clouds started to gather
For you were no where in sight.

You were my first real love
And this I will never forget
How you left without a warning
No good-byes, my only regret.

Wherever I may be now
Always searching for another so true
To place my world of emotion
Handing my love to someone like you.

If again I must go there
And experience all the pain
I would do it in a minute
For all the good I would gain.

No matter what my wrongs
You offered only love
Until the day you left me
For your new home up above.

I know you still are with me
Your love is within my heart
Though life is no longer present
Our souls will never part.

This is given to you in honour
Of all that we did share
I just wanted you to know, love,
How much I really did care.

Beautiful Flower

This poem is dedicated to two of my bestest friends in the whole wide world.I love you'll :)



Starting out so well
Ending in a life of hell
We all need water food and such
But we also need love just as much
The girl found love over a foolish kiss
Because of it ,it led to this
A love of all time
But for the guy, love he will never find
He will sit there and wonder why,
Why he let her go
But Its understanding how he is
And the girl excepted all of this
They left each other and now its over
The girl cried underneath her cover
But no more
She lived like a flower wilted but now
She's a beautiful flower
Full of life...

Lessons

I feared being alone
until I learned to like myself.

I feared failure
until I realized that I only fail when I don't try.

I feared success
until I realized that I had to try in order to be happy with myself.

I feared people's opinions
until I learned that people would have opinions about me anyway.

I feared rejection
until I learned to have faith in myself.

I feared pain
until I learned that it's necessary for growth.

I feared the truth
until I saw the ugliness in lies.

I feared life
until I experienced its beauty.

I feared death
until I realized that it's not an end, but a beginning.

I feared my destiny,
until I realized that I had the power to change my life.

I feared hate
until I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance.

I feared love
until it touched my heart, making the darkness fade into endless sunny days.

I feared ridicule
until I learned how to laugh at myself.

I feared growing old
until I realized that I gained wisdom every day.

I feared the future
until I realized that life just kept getting better.

I feared the past
until I realized that it could no longer hurt me.

I feared the dark
until I saw the beauty of the starlight.

I feared the light
until I learned that the truth would give me strength.

I feared change,
until I saw that even the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo a metamorphosis before it could fly.