Prolouge

She saw him as soon as she entered the classroom,there he was,sitting in all his glory,sighing she walked slowly to take her place as the teacher came bustling in.She had a major crush on him.He was the prince charming she'd waiting for all her life.He was all she ever wanted.She wanted nothing more than to be with him forever.

She walked towards the library thinking about him,looking dazed as she wandered around aimlessly,carelessly glancing at a book every few minutes.Looking down at her feet she walked right into him.She just stood there looking into his eyes.She'd never stood so close to him,or been alone with him.

Recovering she stammered an apology and turned to run for her life.What an ass she'd made of herself,who could humiliate themselves so much?! She hastily turned when he stopped her.He asked her out.Talk about dreams coming true she thought.

Sitting under the banyan tree listening to music,she waited for him.She didn't know when exactly she'd fallen in love with him,it didn't matter she told herself.Being in love is so amazing she mused,smiling.He apologized for being late but she brushed it aside.

They talked.They talked about everything.She learned a great deal more about him.It surprised her,she thought she knew everything about him.She trusted him compeletely,shared her dreams with him.She told him stuff she'd never told anyone,ever.He heard everything she said and nodded when necessary,saying something every now and then.

He cut her off by talking her hand in his.She stopped and looked at him,he smiled at her and looked down at his phone to read his new message.She ignored that.She consoled herself with the fact that she liked holding his hand.Her hand fit against his perfectly,it was like they were meant to be with each other.

She was waiting for him under the tree again while he stood not very far from here,talking to his friends.She watched him,smiling,he barely glanced her way.He came and sat by her after what seemed like a long time.They sat in silence for sometime.He seemed pre-occupied,she asked him,he said it was nothing.It was so easy to sit with him in silence,she thought,not having to talk.She liked that..

He turned to look at her,she turned to face him.He came close,close,he filled the space between them as he leaned and kissed her.She felt like she'd forgotten how to breath.Her heart exploded with joy.Every single cell in her body danced,her heart exploded again,blooded rushed into her head.It was magical.She leaned into him,he kissed her again,he didn't hold her though she wanted him too;she put her hands around his neck,but he did not copy the gesture.She drew back and looked at him,puzzled..

He looked at her in the eye and said "I'm breaking up with you". She felt like..like someone had pierced her straight in the heart.She felt the blood drain from her face.She felt numb. "Why did you kiss me" she whispered barely hearing her own voice. "I wanted to do that before we broke up" he offered as an explanation.Saying that he walked away.

She looked down blindly not seeing anything.She felt..betrayed.She felt contaminated-he'd touched her,she let him;She'd trusted him.She felt sick with herself.Even with the warm rays falling on her feet she felt cold,bone cold.A chill passed through her,She shivered and wrapped her arms around her knowing she'd never let anyone touch her again.

The numbness had spread..

early morning

The light of the early morning
Washes through my hair
As the remembrance of you
Flows freely through the air.

Alone I sit in Dawns early light
As the shadows start to fade
The stillness of my surroundings
As in to my memories I wade.

My soul accepts the music
Of the trees as they whisper
An ancient timeless melody
That I am always to remember.

The shimmer of Gods light
Caresses the ground
In this place where I am
So much beauty can be found.

Like the birds that fly so free
In azure skies of blue
The dreams I have at night
Were meant to be for you.

My love is freely giving
My understanding too
Its clear for all to see
That's what I'm supposed to do.



This is a poem I wrote a while ago.

Sweet Nothings

Dedicated to the useless romantic.Please leave me alone..I'm not going to write lovey-dovey lame stuff like this again.OK..last "happy" post.

I'll whisper softly in your ear
And say these words to you
Three little words you long to hear
Three little words so true

And as you whisper back to me
The same three words you hear
I'll know our love is meant to be,
A love so very dear

When you go to sleep at night
I'll say these words so few
Three little words, oh, so right
Three little words for you

And when the morning light appears
I'll say these words anew
These words again that you will hear
My darling are 'I love you'

The Perfect Kiss

I would hold your gaze with mine
as I approach the corner of your mouth,
then softly kiss you there.

I would kiss your eyes, one by one,
with my fingers tease your chest
and press closer into your warmth
I would inhale the scent of your hair,
drawing a draught of you deeply
into my being, into my heart.

I would move to your ear and linger...
whispering your name with
the warmth of my breath,
then softly kiss you there.

I would kiss, lightly as a hush,
your cheek, then very slowly
returning to your mouth, pause,
then brush it with my burning lips.

Then softly I would kiss you there,
press you closer into my warmth
into my being, into my heart
and savour the aching anticipation
that wells in throbs within,
the want of more of you...

love

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defences, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own any more. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love." Neil Gaiman

Love : A Disaster

"Love sucks. Sometimes it feels good. Sometimes it's just another way to bleed." Laurell K Hamilton

I used to think of myself as little girl with a huge love for living and I felt this love like an endless source of motives to be happy.
Unfortunately,I have lived through some unpleasant situations that make me believe there is no love (yay for me) , it only was my imagination. You can see people cheating each on other, hiding their feelings , trying to take advantage of other's weakness,hurting each other and making them cry; that's how the world works, they say "all's fair in love and war",Is it fair to hurt the person you love ? Is it fair to leave the person you love and who loves you back ? If you really love someone,would you hurt them? Would you just stand by and watch them cry ?.I want to believe in love, but the reality and my experiences say the opposite.Does love really exist..i don't care any more.
Of course I've been in love too (I do not know why/how that happened but I'm sure it was by mistake! ) and I have to agree with all you romantics that it is a nice,wonderful feeling (as long as it lasted) but the aftermath of it was not that nice or wonderful.And the side-effects of it..well I can say that I will stand the side-effects of chemotherapy..but love Sucks.
My friend once said "Not all kisses are magic, and most boys do not live up to your expectations, but there are those times when everything, I mean.. love, romance, relationships, it all falls together perfectly and it's incredible." Damn..!What can I possibly say? I know its useless talking to a hopeless romantic.

thinking,thinking...THINKING!

My mind was spinning with all endless possibilities.Suddenly it was all too much.I was driving myself mad!Why was i like this-why did i have to obsess so much about every little detail with things?Why did everything have to mean something?It didn't,was the answer.I decided to do nothing.I was smiling to myself over the relentless irony of it all..
Allowing the stars spinning around my head to settle.I stood up and splashed some water on my face.

the start

I moved carefully,like someone had switched me 'on',but had set my speed at slow.I went into the bathroom and meant to get straight into the shower,but my reflection caught me,and I stopped,staring.I had turned into a familiar stranger again.I looked pale,but I had bruised looking circles under my eyes.My eyes looked huge and unusually dark.The silver of the chain and the ruby pendant around my neck caught the light and gleamed.
"why?"I whispered.
I didn't expect an answer,and none came.So I got into the shower and stood there for a very long time,letting my tears mix with the water and the blood wash down the drain.

learn to speak chinese in 2 minutes :)

wow!this is awesome.my friend armaan taught me how to talk in chinese..i can say that i havent laughed soooo much in a looooong while (",)
hhhmmmm...phew!well ishaan if you happen to read this-hahaha,armaan beat you to it.stop stuffing your face with paneer butter masala *slurp* and buzz me soon loser!!
armaan thank you for helping me with the pronounciations :) mwah


English: He's cleaning his automobile.
Chinese:Wa Shing Ka

English: This is a tow away zone.
Chinese: No Pah King

English: Is there a fugitive there?
Chinese: Hu Yu Hai DIng?

English: Small horse
Chinese: Tai Ni Po Ni

English: Your price is too high
Chinese: No Bai Nut Ding

English: Did you go to the beach?
Chinese :Wai Yu So Tan?

English: I bumped into a coffee table
Chinese: Ai Bang Mai Ni

English: It's very dark in here
Chinese :Wai So Dim?

English: Has your flight been delayed?
Chinese:Hao Long Wei Ting?

English: I thought you were on a diet
Chinese: Wai Yu Mun Ching?

English: They have arrived
Chinese: Hai Dey Kum

English: Your body odour is offensive
Chinese: Yu Stin Ki Poo

English: You know lyrics to the Macarena
Chinese: Wai Yu Sing Dum Song?

English: I got this for free.
Chinese :Ai No Pei

English: Stay out of sight
Chinese :Lei Lo

English: Phew! Does this bathroom stink?
Chinese :Hu Flung Dung.

amusing images-part 2

i didnt know you spelt sandwich like that..!


i'm speechless :0


yeah your welcome




up for it boys..? :P

pictures that amused me..initially.